05 March 2007 

more not understanding ...

First I would like to say that I have been trying to get on here for some time ... it seems that there is something wrong on my computer ... well the something is that I am having trouble logging on this site ... I have "forced" my way on ...

well today was supposed to be my "day off" ... I say "supposed to be" because my commander was knocking at my door this morning telling me I had to go to the office to fix some shit ... it was nothing big ... but since it deals with computers everyone just throws their hands in the air and screams for my name ... I have a "backup" person but their response is "ummm i dont know" ... so that does me no good ... but I fixed the problem and I have returned to my 5 by 5 living space ... on the walk over I was in a vegetative state ... just numb ... I dont sleep well ... so I am tired, physically and mentally ... I received my smallpox shot last week and I went into the doctors office the other day to get it checked out ... I figured that since I was there I would ask about my sleeping problem ... pretty much the doctor told me to try some things ...

1) if you cant sleep get out of bed and do some crossword puzzles or something to make you tired ... ummm doc ... if I get out of bed I'm in my roommates bed ... there is no where for me to go ...

2) if there are loud noises in your area, turn on your tv to a low sound to try and drown out the noise ... WE ARE IN IRAQ ... mortars, helicopters, asdkja;dfalkfja;df AHHHHHHHHHHHH

3) if there is some light seeping into your room, try and fix it ... well doc these high constructed living quarters have light coming in at all directions ... i would physically have to tape myself into my room ...

bottom line all I wanted was some ambien so I could sleep good ... but instead I got a list of 12 things to try ... needless to say after getting to the third thing I ripped up the page and threw it away ...

but anyway ... so I am here surfing the net on the couple hours I have to myself ... and I stumble across this http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/17458428/ ... pretty much it says there is no plan B for iraq ... the marine gen said "and Marines don't talk about failure. They talk about victory." ... look buddy I dont know where you have been for the last 4 years ... BUT THIS IS A FAILURE!!!! there is no backup plan ... I dont even think there is a "good" plan A but geez ... lives are at stake and trillions of dollars ... there should be some kind of plan ... at least 5 backups ... i dont get it ... i really dont ... sometimes I think I missed something along the way ... like there is something I didnt get ... because this is all already gone to hell ... its only worse ... its not gonna get better ... i mean the Iraq president guy just said he was going to fire his cabinet in 2 weeks ... WHO GIVES SOMEONE 2 WEEKS NOTICE THAT THEY ARE GOING TO BE FIRED ... i mean come on ... you re giving them time to wrap up loose ends and finish business ... and now we have to start all over again ... that means we are here longer ... now we have to get a whole new cabinet appointed and caught up to speed and its going to take forever!!!! funny i found this on another bloggers site ... http://www.globalresearch.ca/index.php?context=viewArticle&code=20070124&articleId=4579 and they say we aren't going to be here forever ... but yet we are building a city here ... hmmm ... great ... money well spent ... gives off the impression that we really want to hand things back over ...

you know our country went through alittle something something back in the day ... the civil war ... we had to fight it out ... it was a sad moment in our history ... but guess what ... one side won ... and because of that we have now have what is the united states of america ... we went through it ... i think we should just let Iraq fight it out ... its gonna happen anyway ... why put us in the middle ... but the funny thing is ... THEY HAVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR HUNDREDS OF YEARS ... so it will never end ... ever ...

it hurts sometimes ... trying to figure this out ... i have been warned that trying to make sense of this could drive me insane ... but seriously ... how is this all happening ... why ... why wont they listen to themselves and the people and stop this mess ... hmmm and we want to start a democracy over here ... turns out we have a tyrant back home messing it all up ... thanks george ... thanks