the kernals are poppin

I guess when you have friends for 10 years, and some for even 15 years, its not that you learn to put up with you friends ... its that you are part of your friends. I guess thats why we all always got along, sure there were disagreements and arguments ... but for the most part it was always dandy. My friends and I had the perfect balance of being alot alike but being very different, we knew how the dinner table was going to be set ... but we all brough something different to eat. I say all this because everyone is so different and weird I cant seem to really relate to anyone ... sure I mean I have made friends ... but now when I want to run to my room and hide from these people cause they all getting on my nerves, I now have to deal with the person that erks me the most!!!! and I have no where to hide from him ... he talks to movies he watches, laughs out loud, I know assume he is partially def from the volume he had it on, and he talks to the little guy on his shoulder ALL the time ... sometimes it scares me ...

when you read your horoscope does it come true cause you are looking for it to ... or does it not come true cause you are looking for it not too ... i guess its the half empty/full question ... good thing is ... if its a bad horoscope it doesnt have to come true ;)

I now have to sit through 3 straight days of briefings on iraq culture ... sure I mean there are some things we should know ... but for the most part its self explanatory ... treat them like human beings ... theyre people ... but since you have to relate to the lowest iq in the room ... and the army has some really low iq's ... they have to spend 3 whole days on telling us what to do and not to do when we deploy ... so these next couple days I might have some random blogs because I should have about 30 hours to zone out and think of some crazy things so that I dont fall asleep ...

since there is a clause in the army saying that if I hit the lotto I get discharged ... I think I am going to start playing ... and if I win I can travel around the world to cool places ( since I have done nothing today I have come to the conclusion that I want to travel )

this brings me to my first huge business proposal ... since reality tv is the trend, when I hit the lotto I am going to sit down with MTV ...

in no paticular order (after I ETS)...

Back to my business and be successful, own season tickets to my hockey and football teams, gain military business, make a major move in the business world, be worth a million dollars, have all the components of my business successful, start a family ... more to come

Joke of the day ... Putting President Bush in charge of Gas prices is like Putting Dick Chaney in charge of Gun Safety!

Btw ... I know that I am to "respect" the commander in cheif ... but seriously ... he goes out and puts this illegal immigration bill out there to make like 20 million people instantly legal immigrants. Most of them hispanic. But then he comes out and says that americans are to speak english and the national anthem is to be sung in english only. I mean make up your mind. u make 20 MILLION hispanic immigrants legal ... THEY ARE GOING TO SPEAK SPANISH and there isnt much we can do about it (not that it really bothers me if they sing the anthem in spanish, he atleast they know it!).

Ding Ding this just in ... Mr let me help with the gas prices just REJECTED a tax on the oil companies and said that "he expects those companies to re-invest those profits into alternative fuels and new energy technologies" - note: oil companies' record profits fueled by high oil prices (i'm at a loss here)

I just dont understand ... a foreign company was rejected from buying our ports (which i agree with, specially cause they would have had the bmore ports), so president Bush lets them buy a defense contracted company that supplies the pentagon and military ... ;akdjaalsdkf .... i cant even begin to comment on this ...

sorry for the ranting and raving about the gov't but it just had to be done ...

on another note I found out that I have a really good chance of staying with B company for the deployment and they are not going to be running FST missions (missions that would require me leaving the base). That makes me feel alittle safer. we are also getting a new det sgt ... thank god!

well thats all for now ... im alittle hurt to find out that my favorite baseball team got voted as one of the worst franchises in america ... damn you petey!

addition ... there are alot of differences between the iraq war and the vientnam war, I think the most important is that the people of the U.S. are behind the troops on this one ... and I thank god everyday that they have our back!

ok I understand how it works ... hot girls in bikinis, some hot guys wearing the "latest thing", and the rich telling you how to get richer ...

but seriously ... does anyone take these mens magazines seriously. dont get me wrong ... I take some advise they give and every now and then they have some articles I find useful. But what if there was a magazine that was actually made for the everyday man ...

Thats right ... advice that normal guys can take in and use everyday ... investing that a blue collar guy with a wife and three kids can partake in ... and the fashion ... use normal guys ...

I'm not saying that they have to be fat guys or no models at all ... but throw in some regular joes ... and ACTUALLY TAKE ADVICE FROM A GIRL NEXT DOOR ... not some supermodel that doesnt know what they are talking about ... dont get me wrong ... keep hot girls in bikinis and scantly clad wear ... but use real normal girls sometimes please ...

Of coarse everyone would call me crazy and say i'm retarded ... thats until someone else gets this idea and puts it all together ... then thats when i'm really the retard ...


"don't be jealous that I've been chatting online with babes all day. Besides, we both know that I'm training to be a cage fighter"

By far the worst week ever! Not to mention I am sitting here waiting for "top" to come by and check my room. Now I am a 24 year old GROWN MAN! I know how to live properly, but god damnit if I want to leave a pair of sweatpants (btw why is it a pair but its really only one thing?) on my bed then damnit, I want to leave sweatpants on my bed.

ps - the new roommate I got ... didnt take a shower after PT this morning! he said he didnt sweat enough ... NASTY!

"Rule #76: No excuses. Play like a champion! "

I still cannot get a full nights sleep to save my life. Its like the movie Insomnia with Robin Williams and Al Pacino, execpt I want to tape up the blinds in my head. I acctually had to write stuff done the other night so that I could at least start to fall asleep ... good ideas gone to waste once again. A combination of no sleep and mono with a sprinkle of stress makes for a horrible special of the day! Top it off with a side total privacy invasion and its just the worst day ever! But the great deal about all of this is that there is not a damn thing I can do but count down the days until this shitty menu gets revamped ... until then nothing but complaining appetizers and maybe some thoughtful desserts!

pop .... pop pop ...

with no chance of parole! I sentanced myself to this jail with no chance of getting out until late '09! Its kinda like when a crook gets put in jail and learns to turn his life around and become a productive citizen, thats me ... fixing my life and turning it around to become the person that I should be.

or the "crazy" person with thoughts that dont stop running through their heads. Today I went through what I thought was a flashback, when really it was a series of seminars that fed the monster that eats at me everyday. It was exactly what I was doing before joining the military and it just made my thoughts go 100 miles an hour. The great thing is that I still get the ideas that I think sets me aside from the rest of the joes out there, but the bad thing is that I cant make the ideas stop. I came up with an idea that I might persue in some way shape or form while in the military ... I figure if I am stuck here for 3 and half more years then I might as well make an attempt to ease my addiction. Now I just have to worry about when the hunger is going to be too much to handle and I acctually have a mental break down. For now ... i'll just sit here and wait for my next fix ...

- I wonder if anyone out there really listens, I mean I am sure they are "listening", but do they understand ... its hard to find someone to really confide in, I really dont know the friends that I have made here. I go from having friends that I have known for 14 years to having friends that I have known for months ... they dont get me ... they wont understand ... so I just deal with it, keep things to myself and just truck on ... 3 and a half months left until I can return to where I belong ...

... along those lines ... dreams ... ever have the gut feeling, the itch in the heart, or that thought that just wont leave your brain! I continue to have this feel/dream no matter where I am at or what I am doing ... in my sleep I dream it ... while awake I day dream about it! while getting lost in this thought it feels like I am supposed to be along that path ... like its where I am supposed to be ... I actually feel a pain in my chest when I get rolling with ideas and plans but there is nothing I can do about ... i've been told by family members and friends of family that there was always something about me and that I was meant to do big things that no one in my family has ever done ... I was starting along that path and realized that I had "cut corners" and that set me back ... now I find myself retracing steps to fix my path and I dont know if I will be where I was at ... but the dream and thoughts just eat at me ... like there is something stronger saying "what the hell are you doing here! u need to be over here doing this ... this is what you are meant to be doing!" ... and yet I find myself here ... locked in ... not being able to get out ... so I just deal with the pain ..............

... people that cant make up their mind, dont get me wrong sometimes I am not the most decisive person out there but damn ... stop having to consulate with EVERYONE under the moon about the simplest of things!

... stumbling into an office that is so poorly run that you now know why the army is broke, and I mean broke in two ways here people. Broke as in spending too much money because people cant do the simplest of tasks the first time so it requires them to do it five to six times and broke as in not organized in the least bit. But I have been reassured that it will only get worse the closer we get to deploying.

... my alarm not waking me up the first five times it went off!

So I'm here in texas and bored out of my mind ... so I figured I would do this whole Blog thing. So far from what it seems is that alot of people use this blog thing to post some pretty useless information ... so here I go ...

Ever woken up realizing that you just relized that you have put yourself in a position that kind of belittles yourself ... dont get me wrong, the whole patriotic thing, going to iraq so that a soldier can come home to his family is the greatest thing that I have ever done ... but all this other bullshit that comes with it really sucks ... not to mention the government owns me for 3 years and change. BTW, if I get a sunburn ... they can give me an article 15 (take money, punish me) for destruction of gov't property ..... yeah .... back for more later ... peace out

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